For real, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
As I typed up my “Things I’m Afraid to Tell You” post and hit the publish button, a rush of anxiety hit me. I didn’t know what anyone else was going to be typing and sharing. I had a brief thought of “What if no one else posts anything like this? What if my post admits just a little too much?”
And instead of going back and changing everything, like I wanted to, I walked away. Well, not so much walked as did a freak-out dance while I looked for some tissues so I could stop crying. I left the house and distanced myself from the computer, so sure that I’d come back to negative comments telling me to stop being such a baby.
It’s hard to admit these things, to talk about them, to acknowledge how much space they take up in my brain. Insecurity is an evil troll that always tells you you’re less than and not worthy of becoming something great.
BUT YOU GUYS! I didn’t get a single negative comment. Instead, every one I got made my heart swell. The jittery mess that I’d been that morning turned into excitement, because dammit, I WASN’T THE ONLY ONE WHO FELT THIS WAY. Over and over again, as I read the incredible loving words from strangers and people I’ve known my whole life, I let out thankful sigh after thankful sigh. I’ve been slowly reading thru everyone else’s posts, and these are seriously some ballsy kick-ass people who are willing to open their hearts and heads and share everything, so that someone out there will know they’re not alone.
So thank you, again, for taking the time to leave such wonderful words to help me realize I’m bigger than negative thoughts and feelings. I can’t tell you how much it all means.